It’s been a long time since I’ve started doing something serious about moving forward in my life. The last time was when I moved down to Florida to go to college. That was a little over four years ago and now that I’ve been a college graduate for nearly a year, I’m starting to realize that I’m not happy with where I am in my life and it’s time to find out what the next step is in my life. I don’t know if it’s going to be something in the gaming industry or in the entertainment industry at all, but I don’t want it to be something that makes me as miserable as I’ve been for the past couple months.
I don’t hide things when I have a problem. If I’m upset, it’s a pretty obvious thing. It comes out in my writing, it comes out in my actions and it usually comes out of my mouth. I will say it straight out. The real struggle is finding out how to get past it and figure out how to change things for the better. The first step I’ve taken is leaving the house more often. I don’t like to work from home so I go to a few different places during the week to get my work done and it actually works really well. I need to get to a point where I can get enough work done and be a fully functioning human being. I need to eat everyday which is not something I’m entirely good at doing. I need to get out of my bed before three in the afternoon. There are a bunch of things I need to do. I’ve always had a problem with schedules, it’s just not who I am.
My lease is up at the end of January and I still have no idea where I’m going. Theoretically the options are endless, my job doesn’t keep me tied down to a certain location, but realistically, the money that would be involved in moving to a place like San Francisco, New York, Boston, Chicago, Seattle or even just a one bedroom apartment in Florida would be too much for me to handle. I just know that I need to start formulating a plan for my future. Even if it is just where am I going to move at the end of my lease.
I guess it’s just one of those times where I feel stuck in between phases and I’ve been stuck here for a while now. It’s time to press on.